Leap Year

Day 61: one of your most prized possessions

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 22:35:49 -0400

This one should already be obvious, but my stuffed dog.

I will love that thing forever and always and if you try and take him from me I will make sure you die a slow, painful, gruesome death.

And the best part?

You can’t do anything about it.

BECAUSE YOU WILL HAVE NO ARMS OR LEGS

BWAHAHAHA

Day 60: a youtube video you absolutely love and describe...

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 22:30:00 -0400

Day 60: a youtube video you absolutely love and describe why

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Sassy talk yo~

Spirit animal ok~

Day 59: one person you can tell everything to

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 22:29:05 -0400

I don’t really know.

I kind of lie to myself a lot so it’s like lol who else am I going to lie to constantly?

Pfft~

Day 58: places you want to visit, and why

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 22:27:56 -0400

Seattle. -Pokemon Center
New Yawk -because of the obvious
Canada -because Poutine
Philippines -because of the food, and my family, and my family’s..stuff.
Europe, in general -because of the scenery and such.
Australia -so I can see John Michael get kicked in the nuts by a Kangaroo
Florida -Disney World and Harry Potters theme park
Texas -THE BBQ. WHY ELSE?
Chicago -Pizza.

Basically I want to get out of California.

Day 57: what is your definition of happiness

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 22:23:25 -0400

I think that happiness is simply what it is.

A state of being content.

There’s different levels of happiness, but essentially most people just try to shoot for whatever brings them joy. Even if it’s for a short moment.

/shrugs.

Day 56: something you did as a child that other people remember you for

Thu, 31 May 2012 16:45:01 -0400

The talent show.

The tahitian dancing.

That is all.

Day 55: a passage from a book that has touched you

Thu, 31 May 2012 16:38:39 -0400

“I got tired, I told him. Not worn out, but worn through. Like one of those wives who wakes up one morning and says I can’t bake any more bread.
You never bake bread, he wrote, and we were still joking.
Then it’s like I woke up and baked bread, I said, and we were joking even then. I wondered will there come a time when we won’t be joking? And what would it look like? And how would that feel?
When I was a girl, my life was music that was always getting louder. Everything moved me. A dog following a stranger. That made me feel so much. A calender that showed the wrong month. I could have cried over it. I did. Where the smoke from the chimney ended. How an overturned bottle rested at the edge of a table.
I spent my life learning to feel less.
Every day I felt less.
Is that growing old? Or is it something worse?
You cannot protect yourself from sadness without protecting yourself from happiness.”

Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close. I don’t have the book and John Michael is sleeping so I’m kind of stuck here. Haha

Day 54: your definition of love

Thu, 31 May 2012 14:54:02 -0400

My definition of love has been getting so skewed lately, I just don’t really know anymore.

But I’ve written so much about it, if you want you can read it here: http://pidgekthx.tumblr.com/tagged/scribbles

Or just read the passages I pull while skimming through them:

I envy the way your hands get to hold each other.

I’d rather have my own hands fill that space. Eat up your loneliness instead of letting it swallow you whole. Be your guiding light through the dark tunnels and home to go to. The warmth of your fireplace and the comfort of your chair. The soothing water on your sore back and the music that plays in your ears.

I’d like to be everything that you find comfort in, and more. I’d like to be just one source that you never have to seek out and can always rely on. I’d like it even more if even the thought of me could bring you peace of mind and calm your nerves.

I’ll be the flowing river if you’ll only be my bed. Wear down the roughest edges until they’re smooth and feed the trees that disguise your beauty.

I’d like to, I’d like to.

If only.

It’s like hot tea. It burns the tip of your tongue and glides over it. You can feel the warmth traveling down your throat and to your stomach. It doesn’t burn as much as the first sip. So you keep drinking. One sip after another. Until you get used to it. Then you’re just warm, but the tea isn’t so warm any longer.

That’s how it is. Intense at first, and it washes over you. The intensity of it goes away after a while, but it’s alright. It becomes normal to you. Part of the routine.

Until you run out.

Then you have to deal with the aftertaste. The slight bitterness of the sugar and tea leaves is left on your tongue. You lick your lips and can still slightly taste the tea. It lingers there for a little while, but the bitterness comes back. You either have to make another cup, or wait for it to go away.

And that’s how it ends. You deal with what’s left over, and even if you try to get it back, it’s just not the same. A fleeting moment in which you can enjoy something that once was. You can get something of the same essence right away to erase the first one, but it never lasts. Or you can wait it out. Wait out the feeling and start anew.

etc etc.

I remember taking a survey and it was about love and shit and I really liked it but idk which blog it was on.

I’m going to look for that right now.

Day 53: your day, in great detail

Thu, 31 May 2012 14:46:40 -0400

Assuming this would be at the end of February, I probably would have just sat around all day, played video games, ate, either be cute with the boyf or fight with him. My days don’t really vary much, especially since I’m always home anyway.

Day 52: if you didn’t have an age, how old would you think you were

Thu, 31 May 2012 14:45:16 -0400

Lol there’s two day 52 challenges here.

But honestly, I’d probably think I was about 18-21ish. Not too young, but not too old. I have that little kid mentality but at the same time I want the decent respect as a young adult.

Idk. People think I’m about 16-19 so they’re not off by much.

day 52: what is the most inspirational thing you’ve ever heard

Thu, 31 May 2012 14:43:16 -0400

It was somewhere along the lines of what one of m coworkers told me, like not to give a fuck about what other people think of your accomplishments as long as you’re happy.

Like, it was a really big turning point for me. I liked the idea of being more satisfied with my own accomplishments than what other people think of them.

It’s so lovely.

And I”m going to redo all of these and try and catch up -__-” haha

Day 51: describe your future wedding

Thu, 23 Feb 2012 03:05:45 -0500

not on the beach
not in the summer, or at least on a super hot day. fuck that
not when it’s raining, because fuck that too
not somewhere where it’s gross or the weather sucks
not necessarily has to be a church wedding
i don’t think my wedding will be huge, then again, I am the FIRST Granddaughter (and grandchild) between my grandparents on both sides. So I’m pretty much fucked. Lol
uh
idk, i want my wedding to be nice, but not too elaborate
not in Hawaii because as cool as that would be, EVERYONE gets married either in Hawaii, Vegas, or some other really nice place.
Because of my background at toy conventions, I’d probably have my wedding during comicon and then the reception would be in a hotel next door. And then me and the husbando or waifu would spend our entire honeymoon time at Comicon. Then we’d go to New York Comicon later that year.
fuckyah.

Day 50: why you are doing this challenge

Thu, 23 Feb 2012 03:00:40 -0500

I’m doing this challenge because it’d be interesting to read stuff from Day 1.

Plus, I like reading old writings of mine, so I guess this is kind of an excuse to write every day, even though I’ve skipped like 10 days and are now currently working up to catching up with darling.

pwahaha c:

Day 49: are you a lover or a fighter

Thu, 23 Feb 2012 02:59:06 -0500

I would most likely be a lover.

I used to be violent as fuck, but I’ve learned to tone that down and just chill. Plus, I see no reason in getting worked up over the little things (unless I’m really hyper and feel like ranting, like earlier today) because then it’s just stupid.

I’d rather sit there and cuddle than punch some two cent hoe in the face.

Well, actually, maybe sit there and cuddle after I punched a two cent hoe in the face.

Yeah.

Maybe fighter, lol

Day 48: your life story in three words

Thu, 23 Feb 2012 02:57:19 -0500

animals
good vibes
food

My life story so far man~

Day 47: is the truth always good to hear, why or why not

Thu, 23 Feb 2012 02:56:10 -0500

Lol because the truth shall set you free!

Butnoreally, the truth is just something refreshing to hear. It’s like..drinking nice clean, cold water on a hot summer day. I always had to hunt down the truth but if anyone were to ever wrap it up and top it with a nice bow and just hand it to me..

yeah.

definitely a really good feel.

Day 46: what makes you smile

Thu, 23 Feb 2012 02:54:38 -0500

It’s honestly the little things.

Going out on small dates, being mallrats, talking about something not so important, meeting up with friends.

I smile really easily, it’s not hard to get me to crack one when I’m in a good mood. c:

Day 45: when was the last time you tried something new

Thu, 23 Feb 2012 02:52:53 -0500

Hmm, I do believe it was a few weeks ago when I had Milano’s Pizza.

O lawd, that pizza.

But as far as trying something new that isn’t food related I would have to say would be when I tried an odd sex position a little while back. Spicy, I know. But it was something new. lol

Day 44: when is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just do what you know is right

Thu, 23 Feb 2012 02:50:20 -0500

Well.

I guess when you finally get sick and tired of simply waiting and you just drop all the worries, grow some balls and say FUCK IT and go for it.

For me, most recently, that day was Christmas. Lol

I was tired of hiding behind curtains and denying that shit, plus, it wasn’t like anyone could really get in my way..

Oh.

Did I say that outloud? :x

Day 43: is it possible to lie without saying a word

Mon, 13 Feb 2012 02:43:33 -0500

If you want to get technical with it, yes. Because it’s still hiding some kind of truth that should have some light shed upon it.

But, if you don’t.

No.

Because you’re neither lying or telling the truth. Being silent isn’t really a way of doing anything really.

You’re not on either side, you know the truth and what lies are attempting to cover them. You’re simply

inbetween.