June 2012
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Day 61: one of your most prized possessions
This one should already be obvious, but my stuffed dog.
I will love that thing forever and always and if you try and take him from me I will make sure you die a slow, painful, gruesome death.
And the best part?
You can’t do anything about it.
BECAUSE YOU WILL HAVE NO ARMS OR LEGS
BWAHAHAHA
Day 59: one person you can tell everything to
I don’t really know.
I kind of lie to myself a lot so it’s like lol who else am I going to lie to constantly?
Pfft~
Day 58: places you want to visit, and why
Seattle. -Pokemon Center
New Yawk -because of the obvious
Canada -because Poutine
Philippines -because of the food, and my family, and my family’s..stuff.
Europe, in general -because of the scenery and such.
Australia -so I can see John Michael get kicked in the nuts by a Kangaroo
Florida -Disney World and Harry Potters theme park
Texas -THE BBQ. WHY ELSE?
Chicago -Pizza.
Basically...
Day 57: what is your definition of happiness
I think that happiness is simply what it is.
A state of being content.
There’s different levels of happiness, but essentially most people just try to shoot for whatever brings them joy. Even if it’s for a short moment.
/shrugs.
May 2012
6 posts
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Day 56: something you did as a child that other...
The talent show.
The tahitian dancing.
That is all.
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Day 55: a passage from a book that has touched you
“I got tired, I told him. Not worn out, but worn through. Like one of those wives who wakes up one morning and says I can’t bake any more bread. You never bake bread, he wrote, and we were still joking. Then it’s like I woke up and baked bread, I said, and we were joking even then. I wondered will there come a time when we won’t be joking? And what would it look like? And how...
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Day 54: your definition of love
My definition of love has been getting so skewed lately, I just don’t really know anymore.
But I’ve written so much about it, if you want you can read it here: http://pidgekthx.tumblr.com/tagged/scribbles
Or just read the passages I pull while skimming through them:
I envy the way your hands get to hold each other.
I’d rather have my own hands fill that space. Eat up your...
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Day 53: your day, in great detail
Assuming this would be at the end of February, I probably would have just sat around all day, played video games, ate, either be cute with the boyf or fight with him. My days don’t really vary much, especially since I’m always home anyway.
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Day 52: if you didn’t have an age, how old would...
Lol there’s two day 52 challenges here.
But honestly, I’d probably think I was about 18-21ish. Not too young, but not too old. I have that little kid mentality but at the same time I want the decent respect as a young adult.
Idk. People think I’m about 16-19 so they’re not off by much.
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day 52: what is the most inspirational thing...
It was somewhere along the lines of what one of m coworkers told me, like not to give a fuck about what other people think of your accomplishments as long as you’re happy.
Like, it was a really big turning point for me. I liked the idea of being more satisfied with my own accomplishments than what other people think of them.
It’s so lovely.
And I”m going to redo all of these...
February 2012
20 posts
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Day 51: describe your future wedding
not on the beach
not in the summer, or at least on a super hot day. fuck that
not when it’s raining, because fuck that too
not somewhere where it’s gross or the weather sucks
not necessarily has to be a church wedding
i don’t think my wedding will be huge, then again, I am the FIRST Granddaughter (and grandchild) between my grandparents on both sides. So I’m pretty...
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Day 50: why you are doing this challenge
I’m doing this challenge because it’d be interesting to read stuff from Day 1.
Plus, I like reading old writings of mine, so I guess this is kind of an excuse to write every day, even though I’ve skipped like 10 days and are now currently working up to catching up with darling.
pwahaha c:
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Day 49: are you a lover or a fighter
I would most likely be a lover.
I used to be violent as fuck, but I’ve learned to tone that down and just chill. Plus, I see no reason in getting worked up over the little things (unless I’m really hyper and feel like ranting, like earlier today) because then it’s just stupid.
I’d rather sit there and cuddle than punch some two cent hoe in the face.
Well, actually, maybe...
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Day 48: your life story in three words
animals
good vibes
food
My life story so far man~
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Day 47: is the truth always good to hear, why or...
Lol because the truth shall set you free!
Butnoreally, the truth is just something refreshing to hear. It’s like..drinking nice clean, cold water on a hot summer day. I always had to hunt down the truth but if anyone were to ever wrap it up and top it with a nice bow and just hand it to me..
yeah.
definitely a really good feel.
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Day 46: what makes you smile
It’s honestly the little things.
Going out on small dates, being mallrats, talking about something not so important, meeting up with friends.
I smile really easily, it’s not hard to get me to crack one when I’m in a good mood. c:
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Day 45: when was the last time you tried something...
Hmm, I do believe it was a few weeks ago when I had Milano’s Pizza.
O lawd, that pizza.
But as far as trying something new that isn’t food related I would have to say would be when I tried an odd sex position a little while back. Spicy, I know. But it was something new. lol
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Day 44: when is it time to stop calculating risk...
Well.
I guess when you finally get sick and tired of simply waiting and you just drop all the worries, grow some balls and say FUCK IT and go for it.
For me, most recently, that day was Christmas. Lol
I was tired of hiding behind curtains and denying that shit, plus, it wasn’t like anyone could really get in my way..
Oh.
Did I say that outloud? :x
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Day 43: is it possible to lie without saying a...
If you want to get technical with it, yes. Because it’s still hiding some kind of truth that should have some light shed upon it.
But, if you don’t.
No.
Because you’re neither lying or telling the truth. Being silent isn’t really a way of doing anything really.
You’re not on either side, you know the truth and what lies are attempting to cover them. You’re...
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Day 42: your best friend just died, what is your...
Cry for days. Lots of days. Probably not get over it.
Like ever.
And then probably tear apart my things, find things of his we could never find when he was here. Reflect back on the friendship and why I never did certain things. Why we never went here or there, did the things we talked about. How many times we both avoided looking at each other while changing. And all the other times we’ve...
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Day 41: write a letter to yourself stating all the...
Dear Me..
Darling dearest. If you are to ever read this in the future, just know, John Michael is at your side at this very moment. Playing the video game called Skyrim. You’re sitting in your brother’s gaming chair, listening to fuckyeahslowjams, and was almost getting ready to play Dragon Nest but then you realized you needed to shower.
And then got distracted by doing that 366...
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Day 40: what are features you get complimented on...
Physical:
hair
eyes
strength
body (when I was actually in shape)
ass
my height
my face
Emotional / Personality / ability
how easily I can shut off my feelings
how well preserved I am in the face of negative people / people that suck
the insults I dish out
how funny I sound when I get aggressive in video games / towards other people
my jokes. John Michael understands this one too well
...
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Day 39: Why you think you’ve learned more from the...
My grandmother raised me right. She really did.
She instilled this hard belief inside of me that whatever I did with my life I would be judged upon by more than just peers and adults.
She always had me think, if I do something like this, would my future family like it? Would my kids like it? How would I be viewed as a standing adult later rather than a young naive child now?
That, and I always...
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Day 38: thoughts on your generation
Some of the people I’ve met so far are decent, most make me feel sad (and some slight disgust/distaste) that I’m even a part of this generation.
A lot of people my age meet the following criteria:
They drink
do drugs
party a lot
smoke
lack the motivation to change themselves as a person
lack the common sense of any decent person
look down upon others and are full of themselves
...
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Day 37: who are you
I don’t know, really.
I’d like to see myself as someone trying to find their place in the world, but I’m at a loss of what to do really. There are the basics, like school, a car, funding, a job, then there’s the other aspects.
Where I’ll live, if with anyone, what sacrifices I might have to make in the next few years. I’m scared, really.
There’s so many...
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Day 36: what you think about your friends
I think they’re pretty snazzy, though I’m not really close with anyone anymore.
I prefer it that way though, you let someone in, shit gets fucked up (or in this case, doesn’t and just fades) and you find yourself where you’ve always been
alone.
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Day 35: words you live by, why do you like them
Hmm.
Most of the time, it’s fuck it.
Haha I’ve been trying to get my temper down and get into better control of my emotions, so every time something has the potential to piss me off or put me in a mood I just tell myself, “Fuck it.”
I know it’s not really original, but there are some things in life that aren’t worth the worry, nor the time. Essentially,...
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Day 34: your horoscope for today and whether you...
Today:
You may be anxious to fit things in your life into pigeonholes, Sagittarius. When it comes to matters of love and romance, this may be hard to do, especially on a day like today. Call upon your pioneering spirit to seek something new and not limit yourself to what.
Uh.
I’m not exactly sure.
I just went to horoscope.com and they gave me this.
So that’s a no..?
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Day 33: someone who really hurt you
Lots of people hurt me, and I always seem to find myself reminiscing and talking about it.
There’s never a chance you can’t get hurt by someone, but there’s a chance that you can get over it.
I mean, John Michael hurt me a couple times before. I forgave him for it because hey„ people fuck up and then try to make up for it.
I’m letting him make up for it because he...
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Day 32: whether you’d rather marry someone who’s...
I’ve dated both kinds, and poor and attractive seems to be my thing. Having no money usually makes them more humble and down to earth, but that’s not always the case. Moneydoeschange people so I’d rather just go for someone who was middle class and in the same financial situation as me.
Got the money when you need it, but not always when you want it.
January 2012
32 posts
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Day 31: a bit about your social life outside of...
I don’t do much other than go to work, come home, hang out with John Michael or the nigs at Bubbles’ house and play magic.
I’ll play the odd video game, play the ukulele or piano. etc. I don’t really do much socially because I’m not much of a social butterfly to begin with.
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Day 30: 5 favorite girls names, 5 favorite boys...
Girls:
Abigail/Abby
Remy Mae
May lol
Chelsea
Annie/Annabelle
Boys
Toby
Justin
Skylar
Luke / Luka
Liam
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Day 29: a date you’d love for someone to take you...
Unrealistically:
I want to go to Disneyland. Have an all day date. Wake up and have an awesome breakfast in Disneyland, and then going on all the rides and walking around, holding hands and wearing couples Mickey + Minnie Mouse ears. Taking photos and videos of each other eating foods or waiting in line or at the Castle. Window shopping and actual shopping. Then exploring California Adventures,...
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Day 28: something you makes you really angry
People.
There’s nothing more rage-inducing than people. Especially stupid people.
Suck my dick, no not really.
Fuckers.
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Day 27: a person you wished lived closer and why
PEOPLE FROM MOUNTAIN VIEW.
LIKE KITTIE.
I would love the shit out of that girl. I really want a female best friend again, but it’s so hard nowadays to manage that.
Oh, and I want Alyssa to live next door to me too. That would be awesome. Super awesome actually.
Annnnd John Michael practically lives with me. So I don’t really wish he lived closer, though I wish I lived closer to his...
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Day 26: 5 things you’re looking forward to
Valentine’s Day
A new job
More unplanned dates
Cuddling tonight
Waking up to John Michael in the morning
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Day 25: a friend you have lost that you’re better...
I wish I had a lot of people back as friends. Talina, Kittie, and Staffon.
It’s a super headache being torn between wanting and not wanting Staffon back in my life. It’s like..
To me it’s like a certain food. You can have it, relish in it as much as possible, and then you get sick of it and even a picture or a mention of it will put you into nauseated fits until you get some...
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Day 24: your favorite 10 people right now and why
I’m not in the mood, nor the type to play favorites.
But if I must.
Carlos, because he’s been there through everything.
As well as Bubbles and Chrissy.
Alyssa, because she’s been a quality friend even though we haven’t connected much after High School.
John Michael because obviously.
Ashley because no matter how long it’s been since we’ve talked, we can...
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Day 23: a month/year of your life when you were...
This month, honestly.
The new year, fresh start. Though it took a lot out of me to get to this point, I’m happy.
I’m actually happy.
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Day 22: how you judge intelligence
There’s different typed of intelligence.
I rate common sense as the best one, and obviously the one people should be judged upon.
That is all c:
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Day 21: everything you wish for in a significant...
I’ve been avoiding this one for a while.
To be perfectly, I don’t know what to wish for in a significant other. I’ve had so many other standards, wishes, hopes. Nothing makes sense anymore as far as what I want in a significant other.
There’s always been the standard of someone who has their shit together, doesn’t smoke, doesn’t drink, etc. But honestly, I...
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Day 20: what you think makes someone beautiful
The way they balance out their confidence and ego. It’s..interesting. To find out what kind of person they are, and how they carry themselves.
That and if they have the physical appeal.
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Day 19: your thoughts on your family
My family is..
Broken. For the most part. We pretend to have relationships that we don’t really have, etc etc. There have been few memories that I can look back on and really call it a “family” moment.
I want a real family, a family that does things together but it’s not forced. I just..
I’m no good with family.
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Day 18: why you made your blog, why you still have...
Initially, I made my blog because of Vj.
He introduced me to Tumblr, and I never really remembered it until after his birthday when he visited me and we met in person.
Oh, did I forget to mention I met him off of Myspace?
Yeah. I listened to a couple of his beats, added him, we talked, chatted. He found out I wrote, so we shared writings and the rest of it is history.
All those years ago, I...
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Day 17: your idol and why you look up to them
I don’t really idolize anyone. I feel that putting someone else on a pedestal all on it’s own isn’t nice, though I’m talking through a hypocrites mouth.
But, if I remember, as a child I idolized a lot of the adults in my life. Especially the men.
All the men were strong, loyal. They had wives and children of which they kept happy and always put first above their own...
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Day 16: someone you trust
I trust my grandmother.
That’s the only person I can truly say I trust with everything. She’s been with me since literally day one. The first second I opened my eyes she was holding me.
She may not know anything about my suffering, the way I dragged myself through the middle of my life. But she knows things no one else does. No one else could. She helped me with my wounds, gave me...
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Day 15: a song that makes you cry and why
The first thing that would come to mind would be an R&B song, or something right?
Nope.
For me, it’s a Spill Canvas song. It doesn’t necessarily make me cry, but it does make me sad. The song just sounds so gentle and lulling, and it makes me remember that times were good at one point. More than good, but also that they were times where I was at some of my lowest points in my...
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Day 14: write about something you believe in,...
I..
This is a first.
I used to have somewhat religious faith back when I was in Mountain View, I’d attend church with my grandmother nearly every day she felt like taking the walk, and I’d especially wake up early Sunday mornings. I had believed that God was all knowing, all loving, and all forgiving, what I couldn’t believe was that he would give you happiness as well as make...
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Day 13: your favorite quote
To get something, you must give something away. To hold something, you must give something away. To love something you must give something away.
The Realm of Possibility is a really good book and it made me think a lot about life and shit.
I like it when books do that.
But yeah, initially, that book helped me through a lot.
